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just missing

2011-12-25T16:56:00.000+08:00

salam. its been a while i've not updating my blog.i miss you a lot.too many things across my mind.too many things happened to me.i gotta be strong and keep moving on.i'm sorry cause i've been away.its too hard. i've been through so many things by my own.i keep it all by myself.this life teach me how to be strong and keep head hell high.but sometimes i failed.sometimes my tears falling down while

eid2011

2011-09-03T15:07:00.000+08:00

selamat hari raya umar syazwan. today is 5th of syawal. not in a mood of raya dah. i miss you. i need someone to talk. i need you. life is ain't easy. i just wanna be happy. and i find its hard. how i wish you're with me now. i'm all alone. semoga you ditempatkan dikalangan orang yang beriman and dikasihi oleh Nya. amin.. salam aidilfitri dari i. always love you. with love, yana.

Menyepi tak bermakna tak rindu.

2011-08-04T11:31:00.001+08:00

I stop for minutes before I wrote this. I'm crying because I miss you so much.I just wanna say I really miss you much and wish to see you.There's to many things I wanna share with you.Please hear me Umar. I always love you. It will never change. Sorry lama x update you.Figuring out what i'm supposed to say to you. *tearing Umar, its been a long time. I should be strong enough.But sometimes I fail

today is 17th june !

2011-06-17T22:06:00.001+08:00

HAPPY 21TH BIRTHDAY UMAR SYAZWAN ! today 17th june 2011, its your birthday.just wishing you happy 21th birthday and i love you. how can i tell you that i miss you badly. i miss you. :') i miss your voice, i miss your laugh, i miss the way you stare at me, i miss the whole thing about you. life isn't easy right. i've been trough a lot of things, and life changes me. i'm a grow up person. but

breathe me

2011-05-16T02:00:00.000+08:00

hey. i've been thinking bout you. "i am umar syazwan & i'm in love with engku nurliana" i just miss you. :')pray for you.always do.i love you.

Kedua tahun.

2011-04-25T01:35:00.002+08:00

25 April 2009 0038 i got call from abby, i got text from sopax. they said you're gone. today, 25 April 2011. its been two years you're gone. i really miss you. i just text abby, i owe her everything, i thanked her. dia yang selalu keep udate your condition after the incident kat i. i sgt2 berterima kasih kat dia. dari you msuk operation romm till you pergi. i rely on her. and i thanked sopax too

i dreamed of you

2011-03-22T20:23:00.001+08:00

hye. i had a dreamed last night. i dreamed of you, umar. tahun ni, ini first time i mimpi you. mimpi yang sama macam tahun lepas. mimpi you tinggalkan i and i tak sempat tengok you for the last time. and i cried badly dalam mimpi tu. tanpa i sedar i cried for real. sampai kawan i datang kat i tanya what happened. mesti dia pelik tengok kawan dia menangis time tido. :') i really miss you. i love

oh, takde ape pun.

2011-03-09T10:01:00.001+08:00

Takde ape pun. just.. dua hari fikiran terganggu. teringatkan you. sedih. hari ni skip class 1 hari. sebab takde semangat. tetiba terfikir, ironiknya kita. sepanjang kita couple, kita tak sempat nak celebrate birthday you and anniversary kita. pernah sekali kita celebrate birthday i, tu pun rushing sebab takut tertinggal bus. okay, your birthday 17 june. year 2008, time tu kenal-kenal macam tu je

new baby

2011-02-12T05:07:00.000+08:00

salam umar. :') just wanna share a good news with you. your sis, along da selamat deliver baby boy. its gonna be happy moment for them. ada orang baru dalam family you. sayang you tak sempat tengok. :') do you miss me like i miss you umar ? i sekarang melalui hari-hari yang membosankan and i'm pathetic. give up la dengan hidup ni. dah penat nk hadap sume ni. tak tahu lagi dah nak jadi perempuan

dan akhirnya.

2011-01-25T19:09:00.000+08:00

salam orang kesayangan saya. :) i'm just fine. sihat alhamdullillah. sekarang sibuk study. assignment banyak. kelas tiap2 hari pukul 8 pg. petang balik rumah penat. malam siapkan keje. haih. tu la rutin hari-hari sampai tak sempat nk tanya khabar diri sendiri. :D akhirnya. i mengalah. sebab tak tahan rindukan orang kesayangan i ni. da lme tak borak-borak kat sini kan. rindu betul. erm. sebenanye

umar syazwan kesayangan saya.

2010-12-20T00:11:00.001+08:00

salam. :) rindu you umar. jom dgr i citer. i ada datang visit you hari tu. datang ngan kak cah. 13 disember 2010. da banyak kubur bru kat situ. sekejap je kan masa berlalu. hmmm. masa kami duduk kat situ, ada seorang pakcik tu datang kat kami, dya ckp dya nk tolong jaga kubur you. dya nk tnm la apa yg patut. tp dya mintak bayar rm70. i pikir-pikir jugak macam nk suroh pakcik tu tlg, tp k.cah

.....

2010-11-25T13:06:00.000+08:00

bisikku pada bulan, kembalikan temanku, kekasihku, syurgaku. tanpa dia malam menemaniku, sepi memelukku. bulan jangan biar siang, biar alam ini kelam, biar ia sepi sepertiku. p/s : rindu. sepi. kehilangan.

daddy daddy daddy. :)

2010-11-15T18:03:00.000+08:00

so many things that i wanna update u. okay, first thing first, I MISS YOU ! i miss u, then i cried, i want u, and i'm still crying. dgr lgu tacing2, selalu tangkap leleh. :') rindu nk borak pasal songs yg kita sama2 share. i suka tu,u suka ni. i nak tu, u nak ini. u marah, i diam, i marah, u pujuk. sweet gula-gula daddy. :') but still, thing will neva change aite. u left me, u left us. and we

raya lagi

2010-09-04T00:05:00.000+08:00

raya 2010.... tahun ini raya kedua u x bersama kami. rindu rindu dan rindu. now, i da start cuti raya for 2 weeks. i bru j sampai rumah. td bila i buka pintu rumah, i nampak ada 1 sampul putih yang belum buka kat ats meja. i pun cpt2 buka and baca. u know what, i dapat kad raya dari ur family. mak,ayah, along, k.cah, k.lang, abg ngah, k.yus, bakal abg lang, k.asyu. x lupa jgk ank2 buah u,

xoxo

2010-08-19T16:59:00.002+08:00

semakin hari semakin hilang minat i terhadap sesuatu.semakin lama, semakin i menjauhi org di sekeliling.semua yang i nak, i da dapat.apa lagi yang i patut mintak.semuanya perfect.family, kawan2, lecturer, clasmate, housemate.hah, everything is great.tapi semua tu meaningless bila jiwa i x bersama i.just like patung, yang berpura2 "everything is fine" even it is not okay.mana pergi jiwa tu ?

salam ramadhan

2010-08-13T19:12:00.000+08:00

sorry, it's been a while i've not update my entries. perasaan sedih memang susah nk hilang kn dd. dengan cara i jauh dari semua orang, i harap i dapat kurgkan perasaan tu. n alhamdulillah, i much more better than before. thanx kawan2. mereka sentiasa ada pada masa i rasa kesepian. u, rmai kawan2 kita dlu ambik berat pasal i. diorang risaukan i. smpai sekarang, diorang jaga i. :) i terharu sangat2

:')

2010-07-18T00:34:00.000+08:00

happy 2th anniversary dd.sedih2.ily.hmmm.:'(

awak comot saya

2010-07-10T14:13:00.000+08:00

hye d. :) karimah say hye to you. miss you. lama x tulis entry doesn't meant yg i da lupa you. be honest, i try jauh dari semua masa lampau i. sebab semua tu buat i teringatkan you. and i akan rasa marah. kenapa semua ni jadi kat i. i sedih, i lonely, i rindu and i rasa sayang yang amat sangat kat you. i've moved on, but i'm still in the past. now, i'm less talking. but i rindu nk borak ngan you.

loving memories

2010-06-08T23:06:00.004+08:00

setiap kali rasa sedih, i cuba untuk tidak sedih.sebab ibu cakap kita mesti kuat.setiap kali rasa ingin marah, i cuba untuk tidak marah.sebab ibu pesan, tuhan nak uji kita.setiap kali rasa putus asa, i cuba untuk tidak berputus asa.sebab ibu cakap, orang yang sabar akan dapat ganjarannya nanti.tapi setiap kali teringatkan 'dia' yang telah tiada, i termenung jauh.hanya mampu berdoa.semoga roh

25th again

2010-05-25T15:40:00.002+08:00

umar, i left everything. i left my past. i gave it up. but i'll never leave you. you'll always be with me. with love liana

wiping my tears

2010-05-22T02:43:00.001+08:00

salam.. banyak benda i nak share ngan you. tapi entah la, tatau nak start bercerita macam mana. many things was happened. it comes and it goes. life cycle isn't it. i pernah termimpi kan you, dalam mimpi tu i nangis sebab i suruh you tunggu, but you tunggu sekejap je and then you pergi. i nampak you, but i tak boleh nak datang kat you, sebab there was a lake or something like that yang pisahkan

wearing ur smile.

2010-05-14T23:31:00.001+08:00

slm.i need u as shoulder 2 cry on.i lost u. u're my everything.xda sp lg i nk share my probs.i learn how to manage my self all alone.mcm2 mslh.tp kita manusia x kan penah lari dari semua 2.oke, i terima.tp sometimes, i taley nk face semua2 sorang2.i need someone.yes. i really need someone.i need u.please,come back.i'm giving up already.i need you !!!!please..come back d.be with me.missing

HIM

2010-04-17T12:00:00.001+08:00

25 april 2010genaplah setahun arwah pergi. selama setahun ini i belajar menghadapi kesedihan dengan matang. i terima pemergian arwah, sebagai ujian dari Tuhan. siapa x sedih. tapi cukuplah i lihat orang lain bersedih. arwah dah tiada, tak mungkin kembali lagi. i rindu, tapi i simpan dalam hati. i sedih, i pendam seorang diri. i nak kawan-kawan & family tengok i gembira. tapi dalam hati, Tuhan

a moment

2010-01-30T21:44:00.001+08:00

i didn't know my love arrives with a farewell. from the moment i opened my heart for him, i made him cry. then i know how story ends. he opened my heart and i wish to be with him only. now i let him go to where his heart go. goodbye. i may regret it. like the night when i had to let my precious first love go. but i pray for his happiness always, behind you. he slowly stepped into my world. i

28 april 2009

2010-01-15T00:25:00.003+08:00

salam. di saat ini, i sgt2 rindukn u. erm, tetiba j td i rasa nk bukak acc e-mail yg lama punya. after sign in, tgk byk sgt e-mails dlm inbox. penuh ngan notification for myspace n facebook. then tetiba i recognize one of those e-mails. that's from shahril. Hi yana, just give u my email add... any info about Umar, do inform me. Yang pergi, kita iringi

goodbye !

2009-12-31T02:14:00.000+08:00

indahnya kehidupan bersulamkan kasih sayang dan rasa cinta. hidup terasa amat bermakna. diri terasa amat dihargai. seringkali kita dengar dan lihat, cinta sentisa ada dimana-mana. mungkin sesetengah orang merasakan yang dia x perlukan cinta dan kasih sayang dalam hidupnya. cukuplah dengan kehidupanya yang serba lengkap. sesungguhnya itu adalah perkara yang terindah dalam hidup ini. cinta kapada

mess

2009-12-16T17:49:00.002+08:00

salam, first of all, i wanna say, " i really miss you !!!!!". hurm, its been a while i x update this blog. lots of things in my head lately. i really wanna share with you, but i don't wanna cry anymore. erm my result is okay, but didn't achieve what was i targeted. past few days, there's one thing keep hunting me when i went to bed. that was a dream. i can't sleep. i've never told you about that

one day.

2009-11-24T00:13:00.001+08:00

hey darl, i just back from kuantan. spent 3 days there with my family. its raining all the way back from kuantan. keep reminds me of you. kalau dulu, if ujan je mesti i text u kan. banjir !!! heee. erm, time tu tetibe i teringat 1 kejadian kat matrik dulu. i ngan u borak2 kat 1 koridor tu, dekat ngan bilik tutorial & kita x pasan en.izzudin ada buat extra class nearby. ala, borak kosong j pun,

its hard to say goodbye.

2009-11-15T17:03:00.005+08:00

When I see your smile, Tears run down my face I can't replace. And now that I'm strong I have figured out, How this world turns cold and it breaks through my soul. And I know I'll find deep inside me, I can be the one. I will never let you fall. I'll stand up for you forever. I'll be there for you through it all. Even if saving you sends me to Heaven. It's okay. It's okay. It's okay. And

tanx darling !

2009-11-12T23:09:00.005+08:00

dah lama i x post kat heartagram. banyak benda yang i nak cerita. tapi yang ni latest. one day i and kawan i jalan kaki nak keluar kolej. kitorang nak pergi shops. then ada 2 orang coursemate i tegur. i senyum la kat diorang. then one of them cakap nk tanya something. i cakap tanya la. she asked : " bila eg hantar gambar kat majalah KREKO ek ? ad gambar eg. org nk tau sbb org pn ada hantar

for you...

2009-09-23T18:34:00.004+08:00

selamat hari raya umar syazwan.kasih mereka......mereka beraya tanpa u bersama mereka.mak & k.cah menagis di pagi raya.along sentiasa tabah walaupun sentiasa merindui adiknya.selamat hari raya.....with love,liana

eid 2009

2009-09-20T00:21:00.002+08:00

salam.....selamat hari raya umar.i always love you.i'm sorry for my mistakes.i had forgiven u for everything.and i miss u so.tahun ni rasa lain sangat-sangat.rasa kehilangan.i'll pray for u.we'll pray for u umar.happy eid 2009.='(with love,liana

rindu bertandang

2009-08-30T02:34:00.002+08:00

d,i miss u.td nangis lagi.i asek fikir, betul ke semua ni ?macam ni ke takdir kita ?rasa macam mimpi.sedar-sedar dh 4 bulan u pergi.i teringat kata2 along.u pergi dlm keadaan mata sedikit terbukak.orang cakap selalunya sebab x dapat jumpa seseorang.makcik u pn cakap kat along macam 2.i'm sorry.i x sempat tunaikan your last wish.u cakap nk jumpa i jugak macam mana sekalipun kn ?i'm so sory.i

1st ramadhan

2009-08-21T23:45:00.005+08:00

umar,besok dah start puasa.i sambut ramadhan without u.i xnak menangis lagi.i harap ramadhan ni dapat bagi i kekuatan yang i cari selama ni.u dah dapat apa yang u nak disana ?i, family and friends always doakan yang terbaik buat you.we all miss u.i ngan along always talked about u and memories.rindunya tuhan saja yang tahu.(air mata gugur kembali. maafkan i)i miss u.betul ke u dah pergi ?

i'm not alone but i miss you.

2009-07-31T18:34:00.003+08:00

first of all i wanna thanks to syida and si chumilthanks for the support.i'm touching read your blogs.my tears won't stop.now, i know that i'm not alone.umar,my friends always give me supports.thank god,i have my friends and family with me.even you no longer with me.i'll always pray for you.god willing,we'll see each other in other world.i'll do the best in my life.i miss you umar.along always

tak guna !

2009-07-29T17:41:00.003+08:00

sia-sia i nangis !u xkan come back..how stupid i am.why didn't i realize that.susah sangat ke i nak terima !stupid.stupid.stupid !!!!open ur eyes liana !he's gone.forever.='(

i love you.

2009-07-28T11:22:00.003+08:00

i've not been crying for a long time.everytime when i think about you,i try to throw away my sadness.hide my tears from falling down.but now,may i cry umar ?i really miss you.i wanna cry..may i ?i'm sorry...with love,liana

to umar.......

2009-07-18T00:05:00.004+08:00

happy anniversary umar.i always love u.you're my only one d.i miss u so much.just now,you're cousin send me a text.dia wish bagi pihak u.i cried.i miss u..tanx for the love.i miss u every single second.swear to god,i'm not ok..Ya Allah,Kau ampunilah dosanya.Kau terimalah taubatnya..Kau tempatkanlah dia di kalangan orang yang beriman.Kau permudahkanlah urusannya disana.amin......happy anniversary

empty

2009-07-09T23:57:00.003+08:00

i miss you.my life is nothing.my soul is empty.its so miserable.day by day.only tears..doa i sentiasa mengiringi u.agar u tenang disana.with loveliana

nukilan hati.

2009-07-04T00:51:00.006+08:00

salam umar. now i'm at home. balik tenangkan fikiran. stay kat sana buat i teringatkan u. zaman kita study dulu2. hmmmm.. sedih la. i sambung belajar but u xda. everyday i cry. missing u. i miss u. yesterday, my senior terpaksa tenangkan i coz i nangis teruk sangat. diorang bawak i keluar dewan. i still trauma. still takut nk terima semua ni. masa kat sana, kadang-kadang i rasa u dekat j ngan

when you're gone.

2009-06-25T02:40:00.003+08:00

today 25th june 2009dah 2 months u pergi.i miss u.i miss everything about u.semoga doa kami semua untuk u dimakbulkan.i love u.its hard 2 say goodbye.but we have 2 rite ?THANK YOU FOR LOVING ME.THANK YOU FOR LOVING US.with love,liana

someone who really care.

2009-06-23T17:25:00.004+08:00

thanks everyone.thanks for the support.i do appreciate it.i think same goes to him.i'm crying when i read anna's friend blog.worse things in life.http://karlisylemania.blogspot.comthanks..thanks for understand my feelings.umar,i dapat continue study kat uitm.xdapat nk share this moment dengan u kn.i miss u..i'm really sad.today i nangis lagi.dh lama i x nangis macam i nangis td.i do miss u..tadi

happy 19th birthday !

2009-06-17T00:01:00.003+08:00

today 17th june.its your birthday..=)tak dapat nak celebrate bufday u dis year kn ?its ok..xda rezeki..i doakan u tenang disana and dapat apa yang u nak.i miss u..besok 18th june,its suppose to be our 11th month anniversary.xpe la..i terima semua yang terjadi.i must open my mind widely kn ?i nk wish u happy 19th birthday !rest in peace umar syazwan.doa kami semua always mengiringi u..with

blank.

2009-06-13T15:36:00.004+08:00

message, 22april2009, 2.14amgud nite syg. i love u so damn much!i taw kte bley stay lama. i miss you.myspace mail, 16april2009taw x d rndu mmy mcm nk mti ?xnak pisah.the message was sent by him 1 day before the accident.and the myspace mail was sent by him one day before we left the matriculation.i never see him since last day at matrix till now.he's gone.i miss u.all this kind of things make me

sang pencipta.

2009-06-09T21:49:00.003+08:00

kehilangan orang yang kita sayang memang susah untuk diterima.apatah lagi kita tahu yang dia x akan kembali lagi.kerana dia kembali menemui sang pencipta.susah untuk hadapi semua ini.tapi harus di ingat,Dia yang maha esa ada semua jawapan ini.Dia maha mengetahui semua yang terjadi.lain rasanya bila kita kehilangan orang yang kita sayang tetapi kita tau dia masih ada,dengan kehilangan orang yang

tears.

2009-06-08T15:13:00.004+08:00

today,i sedih sangat.i xda sp nk berkongsi citer.dulu i ad u.now,i sorang j.kn bagus if u mendengar.i miss the past.i tatau nk cakap pe,coz sekarang i sebak sangat.xda sape yang faham.i tau diorang juz nk sedapkan hati i.diorang xkan faham ap yang i rasa.sebab diorang x rasa sendiri.diorang boleh cakap macam2.but i tetap sedih.i dh sembunyikan rasa sedih i ni dari diorang.but bila i sorang,

daddy mendengar ?

2009-05-29T14:39:00.011+08:00

selasa lepas mummy datang ziarah daddy.along,k.cah,k.lang bawak mummy.anak buah daddy, nuqman & nureen pun ikut sekali.tenang rasanya bila dapat tengok kubur daddy.sangat tenteram kat sana.kami semua rindu daddy.kalo boleh hari-hari mummy nak datang ziarah daddy.gembira dapat teman daddy.masa kami semua sampai,along cakap kat kubur daddy,'wan,yana datang wan.yana datang'nak mengalir air mata

malam ini

2009-05-26T00:02:00.003+08:00

malam ni,hati mummy rasa x tenteram.terbayang-bayang daddy di fikiran ni.mummy tengok gambar-gambar kita.mummy rasa nk menangis.tapi mummy tahan.but now,i don't think that i can stop my tears from falling down.mummy rasa sayu sangat.rasa macam mummy sorang-sorang j.daddy dah tak ada.daddy dah pergi tinggalkan mummy.daddy tak kan datang balik.mummy x tahu nak share dengan siapa.mummy tak tahu

take my heart with you

2009-05-22T20:48:00.006+08:00

today i've been thinking a lot about you. our memories keep remains in my mind. missing you every single second killing me inside.how can i tell you that i miss you so damn much ?mummy miss you daddy..everyday i pray for you daddy.td mummy sembahyang & berdoa untuk daddy. air mata mummy tak berhenti mengalir masa berdoa tu.mummy teringat sangat kat daddy. then i recite yassin for you. again, my

again.

2009-05-19T11:06:00.010+08:00

yesterday your friends asking me about you. she said that she informed about you on 5th of may. and she felt sorry for me. i don't really know her bcoz she said she met u at camp in standard 6. she asked me about the tragedy. i'm so sad umar. when i remember the tragedy makes my heart broken. i miss you. i still keep your last message that night in my cellphone. you're my only one umar..

happy 10th month anniversary

2009-05-18T09:08:00.005+08:00

happy 10th month anniversary umar !today 18th of may 2009.i've got no text message from you last night.no more wishes like we're always done before this.no more..... "happy 10th month anniversary daddy !" "happy 10th month anniversary mummy !"the memories last forever mysoul..i dont wanna cry at this time.i have to be strong.for you umar.mysoul..i miss you.thanks for being mysoul.thanks for the

mak....only you know inside of you..

2009-05-12T22:38:00.004+08:00

just now i've got a text message from umar sis.she told me that her mum crying to her..mak cried & said "dikwan"..then her tears fall down when she saw mak in that condition..mak in a broken heart..missed her son..only god knows everything..i cried when i read the text..i dont know where i must find the strength..i'm sorry for her..she's never express her feeling before this..i knows this is hard

di pusaranya

2009-05-12T13:01:00.013+08:00

masih ramai yang menziarahi pusara arwah.tidak jemu mereka mendoakan arwah.mendoakan yang baik-baik untuk arwah.kasih sayang mereka terhadap arwah terlalu banyak.tetapi,aku jauh dari insan yang aku sayang.jauh dari pusaranya.terkilan rasa hati ini tidak dapat ziarah pusaranya selalu.mengapakah begitu besar dugaan ini.terseksa rasanya berada jauh darinya.hanya doa dan yasin yang mampu aku

my favourite & you search for the guitar notes.

2009-05-11T17:02:00.008+08:00